This being said, the blog is going to be under construction. It needs a makeover, anyway! In fact, I may even be switching blog platforms.
Until Next Time,
xx BAS
Tried to use custom html… messed up.
This being said, the blog is going to be under construction. It needs a makeover, anyway! In fact, I may even be switching blog platforms. Until Next Time, xx BAS
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-->Scored a dream internship at Sotheby's International Realty. (!!!)
-->Turned down three job offers in the areas of social media and/or real estate. -->Landed an invitation to a group interview to become a Hollister Co. Model (which is really just a cashier/clothes-folder but let us be honest here…I much prefer the term "model" ;). ) -->Finally went to a restaurant with Prince Harry that we wanted to go to since the winter (it finally opened up for the Spring season!) We got charged for other people's food as well as our own. Grrrrrrrrrrr…Luckily they refunded us. There may or may not have been a $1 tip involved… We also did a "Challenge" level Sudoku puzzle…GET ON OUR LEVELLLLLLL *throws deuces like a champ* -->Finally went with my friend Austin who I'd been meaning to grab lunch with for a while to Panera! -->Decided what classes I will sign up for during course registration to take in the fall. -->Decided on an order of housing preferences for next year. #yay. But alas… gotta get back to homework. I've got an Italian test on Friday that I've got to do molto bene on, lest my grade will be less than a 93% (which means I'd have to take the final exam in May…eek!) Until Next Time, xx BAS Sorry, readers!! I've been super busy but don't you worry...soon I'll write a legitimate post explaining what I've been up to, as well as my latest thoughts & various ponderings!! Sometimes the best thing we can do is free our souls of our secrets.
Prince Harry and I are back together. We were both very vulnerable. He said really hurtful things because he thought I didn't truly love him, so he wanted to protect himself. Now this doesn't make what he said right,nor does it make my actions right. I was still scared by a past relationship so I was always really critical, nitpicky, accusatory, worrying, and anxious. I thought he didn't truly love me, either. Maybe I wasn't truly ready to let love in because I felt like I couldn't be loved. Yesterday I had the norovirus full-on; today I still have it but a little milder. Saturday was our 3 month anniversary, and I stayed over. Yesterday (Sunday) Prince Harry took such amazing care of me at his house, never once leaving my side unless to grab me more water or Ritz crackers. He only went downstairs to eat a quick dinner when I was fast asleep taking a nap. Now you may judge me, think I'm young, think I'm naive, but I think what Prince Harry was most mad at me about, even more than the way I was critical or easily disappointed or questioning his authenticity was that I wasn't letting him in. Well, now I am finally ready to let him in. I literally stared at a picture on my phone for two minutes of him in his kitchen from Saturday when we were baking s'mores cupcakes together, and just could not stop smiling at it! Rather than react to this "vulnerability" by picking a fight or doing something to push him away or telling myself that there's no way he could reciprocate these feelings, I sighed and felt content with the world. Sometimes, timing just isn't right and you have to wait until you grow and develop a little more, to see what life is like without a person, and then you realize how much better you would feel if they were by your side again. Because when it's a matter of putting your big girl pants on and acknowledging your vulnerability but trusting in the other person not to break you versus losing a person for good, you know what you've got to do - we both knew what we had to do. And that was to break free of our fears and anxieties that were turning us into cold people that we really aren't. His method of defense was offense, and in a way, so was mine. We now agreed to never again throw around harsh words, to always show and tell the other how much we love each other, and to always talk things out without anger or pre-conceived notions (like we think we already know the answer to the question/accusation we would make). I've decided to not post anymore blog posts about our relationship about the day-to-day happenings (sometimes you just need to figure things out on your own without the judgement of the public eye), but once in a while, maybe. It's better not to analyze so much, I think. So, readers and friends, you can judge me all you want, but I know in my heart I have made the right decision for me. Until Next Time, xx BAS I will start off this blog post with a question: What is home? So many people spend their lives searching for it. Everyone has a dream home (whether it be the certain people in it, a certain location, or a certain style of architecture).
For me, it's somewhat a state of mind. How at peace you are with not only your surroundings, but who you are as a person, as well. Feeling comfortable enough so that you can wake up easily in the morning and feel invisible warmth and sunshine, even on a cold and gray snowy day. Well, how does one achieve this? How does one become so incredibly zen that they feel cozy and one with the world? You find beauty in the ordinary. You find luxury in the commonplace. You find security in the uncertain. Not to sound like a modern-day lady Gandhi, but you need to create the environment you wish to be in inside of your mind. As the original Gandhi did say, "Be the change that you wish to see in the world." Ohh, man. So brilliant yet so comprehensive. What inspired this post about "home" was that I got a call back from the manager of a local real estate office that will undertake me into their training program, and then I will become a new agent this summer -- YAY houses! *happydance* Until Next Time, xx BAS I'm certainly used to thinking, using my mind actively, asking how I can be a better citizen and make a change in the world… but let us be honest - over Spring Break, if you're staying at home, you're most likely binge-watching reruns of The Office or Gilmore Girls. Don't let your mind turn to mush this spring break…learn something!!!!
Here are 10 websites that will enable you to remain your inquisitive, curious, brilliant self! ;) 1. Learnist Like Pintrest, but for learning just about anything (my personal fave?? the "how to make latte art" !) 2. Medium A blogging platform, but basically meant for people to spread ideas and thoughts and theories -- it really makes you think! 3. Upworthy Progressive in its thinking, this site has articles and videos that make you question society, our roles in it, and how we can make the world a better place to live in. 4. Zidbits If you like mysteries and you like science, then this is the site for you! 5. Coursera Literally take college courses for free (Yale, here you come!! ;) ) 6. WikiHow May or may not be a great site for personal development purposes... 7. HowStuffWorks If you've always wondered how to use a fire extinguisher, for example, this site's got your back. 8. Codecademy To help you embrace your inner computer science skillz! 9. Khan Academy If you're in high school or college, this guy will literally save your life (and also your grades). 10. Vocabulary.com As an English major with a concentration in creative writing, increasing your vocabulary is a must!! I read this somewhere, I honestly do not remember where, probably somebody else's blog or a book or website but somebody said that the more words you have the more thoughts you can think, and the more detailed and intelligent those thoughts will be because people use their words to have thoughts. So basically, the smarter your thoughts are the smarter you will become - which all starts with building your vocabulary. Genius, right!? Arghh, I wish I remember who said that…. I'll keep trying to remember…. *sigh* :p Feel free to share any sites that you use for learning purposes with me via comments or contact form! Until Next Time, xx BAS A major question of mine that always seems to dance around in the back of my mind *cue the showtunes in the background* is: What does it mean to believe? In a higher power, that the future will get better, that a person will heal from a chronic injury or illness, that an unmarried relative will finally find true love, to trust in a partner not to cheat, that you are worthy of everything good in the world and don't deserve to be mistreated, when everyone else has given up on a cause that you care about dearly…
How can you blindly believe in some hope or wish without any proof that it'll come true? And what do you do when all the praying or, as Jack Johnson would say (ermm…sing? :p), sitting, waiting, wishing in the world isn't seeming to work? Also, this might be tangential, but how can you ignore all of the awful things that are going on in the world and still be purely happy? How can you be entirely, truly happy when you hear about acts of vice, horrible wars, illnesses, abuse, deaths, and other disturbing things? How can you rise above it all and feel that pure sense of freedom that only true bliss can bring? That list I wrote a few posts ago about ways to brighten your spirits helps for the short-term, of course, but what about the things we cannot change? How do we come to terms of acceptance? I'm probably just being a little dismal because my tummy feels like it's doing the cha-cha at the moment (eternal misery!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *flails arms with reckless abandon*) and I'm all emotional (yay for struggle-o'-the month time), but still, it's something to think about! Off topic: I think orange is my new favorite color!! Things that've been in my life recently that are orange: Ricola honey herb cough drops, chewable Advil tablets made for children (let us not talk about my pill phobia…..), lip gloss, a journal I keep that I write poetry in Italian in. Yay for orangeeeee!! <3 hahaha :P Until Next Time, xx BAS I think every Spring, it's important to clean up more than just our bedrooms and closets, but rather we should also clean up the "toxic spills" in our lives, as well. Quit the habits that bring you down (not just for Lent, if you celebrate, but forever). Let go of friendships where you weren't able to "be as you are", my new fave motto!! You know, the ones where they wouldn't understand where you were coming from, they would make you feel unappreciated or unimportant. The ones that made you sad and frustrated and hate yourself a little too often.
Instead, make room in your heart for new friendships, the people who will bring you up in life, rather than make you feel down on yourself or miserable, those who won't neglect or reject you. Try new things: new hobbies, new habits, new restaurants, new routines, new shampoos (LOL! But really though!! I can't because I have to use the Chi Enviro products because I had their treatment done which was without a doubt the best cosmetic choice for myself I've ever made. But the smell of coconut instead of strawberry, or vice versa can honestly affect your mood or confidence -- it can make you feel like a pampered princess/prince, something we all could use!) So, although this post is one that is cathartic in nature, more importantly it is a call to action for us all: clean our your emotional, metaphorical closets, clean out your physical, literal closets. Spring is beginning, and it's time we open our arms to change and newness rather than feel trapped in our old ways and patterns. To the future!!!!! *clinks virtual glass of champagne against yours* Until Next Time, xx BAS PS- JUST FINISHED MY PAPER!!!!!! YAYYY!!!!!! SPRING BREAK!!!!!!! HOLLA!!!!!!!! TIME TO PARTY HARD!!!!!! ON MY COUCH!!!!!! WITH FOREIGN FILMS AND LITERARY FICTION!!!! WHILE CUDDLING MY DOGGY!!!!! <3 Praise da lawwdy my professor said we can hand our papers in Monday.
Only five more hours of editing (way more than I had thought originally….oops) yippee! |