I quit modeling in my college's fashion show at the annual multicultural dance performance. I chose attending a Passover seder over speaking in a panel of faculty and students about how gender is portrayed at my college. I quit my college's chapter of HerCampus, and acting as content manager for it. I decided not to apply for a position advocating for sexual assault prevention and awareness on my college's campus because I would truly not have time for it. I told Prince Harry that I need a little more time studying Italian (and therefore cannot hang out as much during the week) and he understood that I wasn't using it as some excuse not to hang out -- I literally just want to spend some more time on my classes because I honestly feel like I haven't been getting as much out of them as I could and want to spend some more time on studying. I decided not to join the spoken word club at my college until the Fall because I just don't have time. But rather than focusing on all that I'm "giving up", I'd like to focus on what I've gained by all of this "quitting"…
I was able to apply for a job as Floor Model at my local Hollister Co. outlet (I hear back this week… *fingers crossed!*). I was able to take a few minutes and just sing along to "Find You (Acoustic Version-Live in Los Angeles)" by Zedd and "Explosions" by Ellie Goulding. That version is my absolute favorite of "Find You" and I highly recommend it; it really makes me want to do ballet!! I was made co-blogmaster for my college's fashion magazine's blog (I write the column Must-Have Mondays). I held a successful letter-writing event for Love Your Melon which I am now my college's campus ambassador for (www.loveyourmelon.com). I will definitely write more in depth about the event and the Love Your Melon organization in general, later.
I've been learning and struggling and floating and sinking and breathing deeply this past week, but I think sometimes you need a really stressful week to help you reach a better place. To help you feel more at peace with yourself. When you lose touch with yourself, sometimes you need to worst of days to remind yourself that you can get through anything. Or, as my personal favorite quote, "If Britney can make it through 2007, you can survive this day."