A major question of mine that always seems to dance around in the back of my mind *cue the showtunes in the background* is: What does it mean to believe? In a higher power, that the future will get better, that a person will heal from a chronic injury or illness, that an unmarried relative will finally find true love, to trust in a partner not to cheat, that you are worthy of everything good in the world and don't deserve to be mistreated, when everyone else has given up on a cause that you care about dearly…
How can you blindly believe in some hope or wish without any proof that it'll come true? And what do you do when all the praying or, as Jack Johnson would say (ermm…sing? :p), sitting, waiting, wishing in the world isn't seeming to work? Also, this might be tangential, but how can you ignore all of the awful things that are going on in the world and still be purely happy? How can you be entirely, truly happy when you hear about acts of vice, horrible wars, illnesses, abuse, deaths, and other disturbing things? How can you rise above it all and feel that pure sense of freedom that only true bliss can bring?
That list I wrote a few posts ago about ways to brighten your spirits helps for the short-term, of course, but what about the things we cannot change? How do we come to terms of acceptance? I'm probably just being a little dismal because my tummy feels like it's doing the cha-cha at the moment (eternal misery!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *flails arms with reckless abandon*) and I'm all emotional (yay for struggle-o'-the month time), but still, it's something to think about!
Off topic: I think orange is my new favorite color!! Things that've been in my life recently that are orange: Ricola honey herb cough drops, chewable Advil tablets made for children (let us not talk about my pill phobia…..), lip gloss, a journal I keep that I write poetry in Italian in. Yay for orangeeeee!! <3 hahaha :P
Until Next Time,